[It does feel impossible. More than. Sunny can't even think of the right first word. "My sister--"; "I killed--"; "There was a--"; "We had a--".
[It's not enough. Can't be, right? What does Dr. Maruki need to know? Will he only take away what Sunny gives him? He couldn't recount the whole thing if he tried. Sometimes, he still barely remembers it at all. He went so many long, long years, never even realizing - not allowing himself to.
[His heart beats wildly in his chest, and his breath is already coming in short gasps. He can't possibly think of her words - can't calm down, can't focus - when he's thinking of her - the stairs - the violin - his anger - his fear - his dread - a crack - a crunch - silence - silence - silence--
[Sunny's eyes are wide. He looks at Maruki like a mirror, a monster. His hand grips the fabric of his vest over his heart.]
My sister. [Impossible. Impossible. His voice barely makes a sound. He can't, he can't...
[He shakes his head - bites his lip. He wants to run; takes a half-step back.]
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[It's not enough. Can't be, right? What does Dr. Maruki need to know? Will he only take away what Sunny gives him? He couldn't recount the whole thing if he tried. Sometimes, he still barely remembers it at all. He went so many long, long years, never even realizing - not allowing himself to.
[His heart beats wildly in his chest, and his breath is already coming in short gasps. He can't possibly think of her words - can't calm down, can't focus - when he's thinking of her - the stairs - the violin - his anger - his fear - his dread - a crack - a crunch - silence - silence - silence--
[Sunny's eyes are wide. He looks at Maruki like a mirror, a monster. His hand grips the fabric of his vest over his heart.]
My sister. [Impossible. Impossible. His voice barely makes a sound. He can't, he can't...
[He shakes his head - bites his lip. He wants to run; takes a half-step back.]
She...she...she...she--
...fell...