[Maruki sits beside him, and it's a comfort. Armin doesn't hate people the way that Eren does - he hates them, but not the way Eren does. He wants to be close to people - even people he doesn't know. He wants to love, he wants connection--
[The point is...it's a comfort. Perhaps too much of a comfort. Maruki says, "You don't have to talk," - he says, "...you haven't really been able to yet," - he says, "...it's what I'm here for," and there is so much devastating, overwhelming, consuming compassion and kindness to all of this.
[Armin's always believed in kindness. He'd like to be a kind person. He'd like to be. He really would...
[He tastes blood and pulls his teeth out from the flesh of his lower lip - licks it and curls his lips inward, shaking his head.
[Then, at long last, a sob. His body lurches with it, bent over, mouth hanging open, spit pooling and sliding out of his mouth. He looks like he'll throw up. He cries without sound, like a prolonged gag that brings up nothing. His body jerks. He puts his hand in his hair. He shakes his head, closes his eyes, but it's all real, and Eren is gone...
[Gone. Eren. Gone. It's impossible. It's just not possible.]
the way I literally have an icon for this - ugly crier armin arlert real
[The point is...it's a comfort. Perhaps too much of a comfort. Maruki says, "You don't have to talk," - he says, "...you haven't really been able to yet," - he says, "...it's what I'm here for," and there is so much devastating, overwhelming, consuming compassion and kindness to all of this.
[Armin's always believed in kindness. He'd like to be a kind person. He'd like to be. He really would...
[He tastes blood and pulls his teeth out from the flesh of his lower lip - licks it and curls his lips inward, shaking his head.
[Then, at long last, a sob. His body lurches with it, bent over, mouth hanging open, spit pooling and sliding out of his mouth. He looks like he'll throw up. He cries without sound, like a prolonged gag that brings up nothing. His body jerks. He puts his hand in his hair. He shakes his head, closes his eyes, but it's all real, and Eren is gone...
[Gone. Eren. Gone. It's impossible. It's just not possible.]