thebomb: s4 (9)
Armin Arlert ([personal profile] thebomb) wrote in [community profile] humiliatious 2024-08-09 08:54 am (UTC)

cw: grief, death, gore, body horror - I'm having a good time over here idk

["I'm a passenger as much as anyone else."

[Funny loophole, yeah.

[The grief is too great and too new. Armin's smile fades, although it isn't the right time.

[Countless lifetimes; no escape. Some clawed hand, unseen, rips its way through Armin's shoulder blades and wrenches out his heart-- Ah, but, only a dream within a dream. He's still seated on the armchair, alive and well and truly dead. His posture is just fine, too.]

It makes sense.

["Armin. It's just as you said.

["I'm a slave to freedom."]

It makes perfect sense, actually. Our perception being all that we have is, by its nature, something that must be changed externally...

[They could have done more. They should have. Sooner. Better. Something...

[Armin looks up quite abruptly; hadn't noticed his head had dropped until it lifts again.]

I feel terrible for people like you. [Honest.] It must be some unique Hell, being unable to change your own reality, while bearing the weight of so many others'. [Too honest.] I'm sure it's lonely. [Stop talking.] I'm sure you wouldn't be telling me any of this if you didn't think I'd forget it the second you let me go--

[Enough.

[Too great. Too new. Enough. Quiet down. Enough.]

I'm sorry. [Smile.] I got ahead of myself.

[Adapt. Invent.

[He lowers his head again, massaging at his temples with one hand as he shakes his head - a lie.] Everything I've told you...it's still fresh in my mind. [Half a lie.] I'm only trying to understand. [Honest. Honest.]

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